Sometimes I feel giddy at the thought of being alive. Does this mean I'm on autopilot the rest of the time?

http://www.guardian.co.uk/commentisfree/2008/may/05/healthandwellbeing

Oh God - I know this feeling. It often hits me after daytime naps and it is terrifying and I usually have to tell someone. This is EXACTLY IT!

But I don't think we are on autopilot the rest of the time because of our modern age of machines. I think if we felt like THAT all of the time, then we would not be able to do anything except gawp and cling to each other and mumble and fall to our knees.

It is also not just to do with being alive and how amazing that is - but also very much about death too. Ooooh - I must come back to this later - I don't know if i have any more powerful feelings than this one described here.

Thank you for finding it. You must have remembered I feel this - the number of times I called you in the midst of it.

star wars - a little different

From Radio 4

I have felt particularly desperate today. Sad. Unsure. Wishing for a bridge.

also

The way Klein writes is also fantastic. I have never remembered the details of a factual book so well. I feel I understand the underpinnings of neoliberalism and the free market more than I ever have.

Naomi Klein - The Shock Doctrine - a short film

I cried when reading The Shock Doctrine. It made me want to run outside and shout, but also climb into bed and pretend that there aren't people like this - people who really see this ideology through. And you can see the truth of this book in our world now. What will happen after China's earthquake and Burma's natural destruction - will the same happen here. I will watch carefully.

This short film sums it up.